The last few weeks have been a bit of a whirlwind for me. I usually refrain from being all “FEELINGS! FEELINGS!” on this blog, but decisions have been made, milestones have been had and major life changes are afoot. Which means: share time.
Last Friday was my last day at my day job. The truth is, I wasn’t happy. And I know that–according to all the motivational/inspirational/perspirational graphics I’ve read on Pinterest–happiness is what you make it! And you are your own road to happiness! Blah blah blah. Say what you will, but I just wasn’t happy and I wasn’t getting happy. This was a huge surprise to me. I had my dream job, or what I’d always thought was my dream job. My senior year of high school, on Job Shadow Day, I job shadowed for THAT JOB. Every job I took and everything I did was like a stepping stone toward THAT JOB. And I felt like the luckiest girl in the world when, less than ten years after Job Shadow Day, I got it.
Dream come true. Until it wasn’t. It never once occurred to me that maybe it wasn’t my dream job. And I definitely never thought about what would happen after the dream job. It was my dream job! I’d have it forever! Right? Wrong. It took months for me to admit that dreams and reality are two very different things. And as a leader, my unhappiness affected others. I needed to be inspired and passionate, but I couldn’t muster the tiniest of fist pumps. Luckily, I have the best fiancé in the entire world, along with very supportive family and friends, who all encouraged me to make the (very scary) leap and freelance full-time. So, about a month ago, I let my co-workers know that the issue we were working on would be my last. And before I knew what was happening, I had a business license and a home office. Yup: Rosemary Hallmark Creative, LLC exists. It’s a thing. And I’m feeling pretty good about it.
Hopefully, this means more blogging and more personal projects. More time/energy/inspiration to do the things I love. But even if that’s not the case and I’m super busy working all the time, I still win!
So cheers to new beginnings, new businesses and new blog posts. It’s margarita o’clock and I have some celebrating to do.